About meem group, Lebanon

it's my first time to find group gor gays/lesbian and thier views are reasonable to me ! that's why i'm trying to support them through this post !

meem is a group for lesbian, bisexual, transgenders (including male-to-female and female-to-male) From Lebanon, Meem is based on values of equality, support, confidentiality, and respect. The group was created on the idea that women should be encouraged to empower themselves and each other through mutual support.
Their goal is to create a safe space in Lebanon where lesbians can meet,
meem from my view is a seed for new groups working in the middle east in different countries.
they dong that from alot of ways, one of the ways is supportting for projects to promot the posstive values for lisbiens !
They saying " Our work at Meem is all about supporting the members, and part of our support is also financial. We welcome any and all proposals for lesbian-led projects that benefit the LBTQ women's community in Lebanon. These could be film or theater projects, art exhibitions, books or other publications, small businesses, and other such initiatives."

you can support Meem by many ways as they wrote in thier website.

looking for a night in ManJam !

Well, it's 12 midnight now and as everyday when i done with my life, i going to the internet to check out what's going on !
i went to the manjam " the most famous gay social network in Egypt and the Arabic area, in other words it's the eastern Adam for Adam "
i find in Egypt more than 490 online guy in all of Egypt and 320 of them in Cairo.. anyways I'm not about counting right now, but the point that means there are more than at least 300 guy who have internet, logging in, and can use this kind of sites ! who are looking for partner in their nights ! exactly like me ! in the best view not more than 30 "10 %" of them can get it in this night and meet up some good guy that they are in matching with him ! in other words .. around 270 " 90%" going to the bed lonely to get their more sad night ! HOW SUCKS IT IS !
i know some of you guys will say it's not necessarily to be sad night .. and there's no necessarily for sex in the happy nights .. ok i do agree with you .. but also ask your self .. did you get your best night .. whatever your age .. without a partner you can have sex with .. ha ?
the sex partner not necessarily for all happy nights .. but in the most happy nights .. there's something missed .. i think now you know what it is !

those 320 guy in Cairo or the whole 490 in Egypt .. they exactly looking for their fucke' something they missed in their most happy nights .. like i do !
Life is awesome ?

the " invisible life " and " yacobeyan building ", Egyptian gays and Afro-American gays !

he was the computer salesman and his friend told him that he should write something everyday even a word !
he published a novel called " invisible life " the novel trying to discussing the Afro-American gay life, and explaining tow main points; first how hard to some Afro-American guy to be gay even in the united states, Second how many of Afro-American women can not imaging that maybe good looking muscled handsome colored guy sleeping with guys and get enjoyed !
When Laynn harres the author wrote about the secret life of the " Afro-American gays ", For first time , he entered a closed taboo ! that nobody never wrote about before !
the hero of the novel is an Afro-American bisexual and cant choice between his girl friend and his sex partner guy ! How hard it 's .. is it ? !
However, in the Arab world we had something like that ." who broken some different Gay taboo " in the novel that called yacobeyan building !
But situation on is def here, Alaaa elaswany when wrote yacobeyan building was the first one stressed about the gay character and why he being a gay, and in the end he get killed by the same person was having sex with !
to be gay in some middle east state it's not fine and your life " as mine " do not going in good way !
so for bisexoul guy in Egypt for example, dont have problem to chose between his gay life and his straight life, or in other words, between a girl friend and a boy friend or sex partner, because simply there's no gay life, or totally def. kind of gay life who available in the middle east states !
and if you are Afro-American guy, your life also will not going easy at all, in close of middle Eastern gays !
that's why there's something similar between " invisible life " style and the " yacobeyan building " style, because the both gay or bisexual here or there, having problem just to being in normal life !

Just .. Short Gay Movie

JUST is short movie talking about tow guys met to One night stand and then .. !
the movie discussing the concept of the Open relationships, and any long term relationship of gays must be under open relationships category or no ?
ok .. You can go there to watch the movie !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=97tlKSQH2TQ

my Email has been sent !

from almost one year ! i was out side Egypt, and when i back i received a message in my manjam account from some empty profiles, and almost of time i'm no into empty profile " it's matching site not networking one " but i opened the message and it was like " i really would like to know you more, and sorry if i have no pics here but i have in msn " i added him we started chat and spend chating more than tow hours and then tow another hours over mobiles, we spoke in everything, we said alot of nice and silly jokes, then we make a deal, to meet up in the after one day, i met him in some coffee in elmohandesen he was with his straight friends, we were talking by eyes, for me it was the best first meeting ever ! he was so kind and his friends were cool too !
elmohem !, then we moved to some other place " some friend for him place" i'm totally not into this kind of hunging out and he too i think he's not from the kind who can meet anyone and going to some place for gathering and stuff like that, some of guys there were drunk and the others were on drugs " how awesome ! " and we both were fine ! then the place owner slept inside and we find our selfs alone in the place and the owner is really on drugs, i cant say we had sex, but i can say we had wonderful fun !
we spend like an hour, and we didnt done ! because he and me didnt like to do it in the first time, as a one night stand and keda !
any ways, for me it was a night in my life, but i tried to call him again, he did never answer me, and i didnt meet him again !
my explanation for that, that he was worry to fall in live with some ine he does nt know well ! especially he was just out from bad experience !
now . and after one year, i jut emailed him ! to tell him " i miss you " and the email has been sent
' : - )

Iraq : stop kiling GAYS !

maybe it gonna be the most sad video you can see in your life ! i was about crying !
http://ikbis.com/Rafique-n/shot/187152
sometimes i do hate this world ! really i do !

the gay life in old Egypt

yes, i used the gay life expression not the gay culture, from my view there's nothing called gay culture .. !
and don't looking to make basics for the gay life in the history .. but anyways .. it's the true !
the gay life is not like internet or mobile cells .. it's really old thing in the human culture generally ! and in the middle east culture especially ,
you can feel some good feeling when youy hear that love between men was beautful thing and acceptably too in old Egypt, and maybe more than nowdays ! maybe it's about the FAKE conservationism that we have right now in Egypt !
and when we started talking in the middle east culture we cant pass the Egyptian culture ! let's start from the place we have to start from.

In 1964 in the ancient necropolis of Saqqara, the Egyptian archaeologist Ahmed Moussa discovered a series of tombs with rock-cut passages in the escarpment facing the causeway that lead to the pyramid of Unas. Soon after, the Chief Inspector Mounir Basta reported crawling on his hands and knees through the passages, entering one of the Old Kingdom tombs. He was impressed with its unique scenes of two men in intimate embrace, something he had never seen before in all the Saqqara tombs.

Inside the tomb the names of Niankhkhnum and Khnumhotep are inscribed as one name over the doorway. In the deepest part of the tomb the identical pair are shown in the most intimate embrace possible within the canons of ancient Egyptian art. The tips of the men’s noses are touching and their torsos are so close together that the knots on the belts of their kilts appear to be touching, perhaps even tied together. Here, in the innermost private part of their joint-tomb, the two men stand in an embrace meant to last for eternity

# to be continue

in the deep of your sadness as a gay !

in the deep of your sadness ... you may meet some good one .. let you think positive ..
he's not necessarily being fucken' hot, or even your over type as a gay but you feeling that's he's a def. guy. and you find your bad mood has been changed, that dont means you have un balanced personalty ! .. umm but actually maybe ..
from my view .. i do believe that all gays " especially " are not really you may balanced .. until 40s you may meet one changed all over your life ! .. that's the only thing I'm afraid of !
ooh .. when being gay .. maybe it's nice .. but not that easy especially when you being like me .. living in some conservative state ! .. ah .. how complicated it is !

:-) Not about sex !

Please, try to look deeply into this pic, it's not about sex, it's just about LOVE, i think you can feel how much those both in love!

The equation, do you have idea !

i LOVE someone,
he Even didn't feel me,
i never told him,
we still see each others as just friends,
he asked me about my opinion in if he felt something def. about some guy,
he going to have long term travel really far of my country,


do you think i have to tell him about my feeling in the " maybe " last time we going to see each others !

P.S : i starting to feel that's i gonna be more fine than i'm now after telling him , but i afraid if he ignoring me or thinking bad on me !

God Bless you Neda, Fuck Negad

God Bless you Nada and Fuck you ahmady Negad, fuck your regime, fuck you government, you are totally like Moubarak .. your election is fake totally like Mobaraks election.

I'm on the twitter now !

do you know twitter? if you dont, it's really exciting Social Network, you can start and follow me there.
and anytime you can see my updates in the sidebar of this fucken' blog !
peace !

Iran

what the hell !
fake election yawelad elweskha ! .. or maybe it's the islamist way in the election or it's the vision of islamist democracy ... a7a !
do you remember what the fucken' Iranian regime did for gays
the ass-hole khameay mention in his speech that's it's the election and all citizens must accept the results ! a7a ..he forgot that the ones who accept fake results are " saketen an el7aq "?
ha ... ?

and the other silly part in the story is the reaction of some egyotian who were almost supporting Ahmady Nejad , just because he anti Isreal and the states !
i asking my self if the old adminstratins in the USA was still in there ..what gonna happpen .. Barak Obama is still trying to good with everybody .. and the only statement he said " the world is watching what happen in Iran " a7a one mlast time :)


any way .. I'm happy by the demos that happening Over there in iran .. and i'm in solidarity with the freedom dreamers there ! and finally fauck Nijad and Moubarak because they are not really def persons !

drunk night

i arrived to my home around 5 am .. trying to open the door but i cant .. mum heard my keys sound and open the door .. she was praying el fajr ..
why u late ? .. she asked me .. and i going street to my room .. closed the door and then my bed .. closed my eyes .. and started dreaming before sleep ..
i dreaming by call ..just a call from the guy i met from few day's the guy i feel his clam when i touched ..
wow .. i cant image that's it's the 1st time i feel a clam of guy from more than 2 years ..
every time i had fun .. i get non-enjoying .. but with him all was deff.
i dreaming by touched him again and kiss his lips
the time i met .. i had no fun with him .. but i was extremely happy .. just because i'm with him ..
i know .. maybe that's NOT love .. and maybe it's .. i miss him so much now.
now i'm in very bad mood ..and don't know what will happen..
beside um not sure about anythin .. like .. if i am into relationship or no .. ? my heart is ready for love ? ... my life is ready for partner ?
everythin is not going well .. rabena yestor

Also Love

when i was in my way from ra'as sedr to Cairo we got a rest in the way and the majorty are come get out to buy food or drinks from the coffee ..
and then ii saw a guy around 17 years old with old man around 50 years old .. from the 1st Glance i had a feeling told me there is homo relationship between the both .. i told my friends and they said like " hey common he's father and with his son "!
i didn't care alote .. but the touch between them hands is not touch betwen father and son .. it's another one .. i can feel !
ummm
after few mins we back to the bus and after hour we stopped in another rest .. all ppl in bus is going out expte those both .. i forgot something and going back to the bus to get it .. and i saw the both with the linked fingers .. and having a deep look to them eyes ! when they saw me stop this case !
maybe they're linked as gays and maybe not .. who's know?

i do agree with any relationship between any ones .. it's them freedom ..but the point's when some relationship between 2 gays .. there one of them must to be top and the other must to be bottom .. by the way i mean in life not in bed !
at least i do repaid it's them freedom .. i'm not against any one !

Elqaradawy

yes, when i read it .. i cant stop smiling ..
... when el qaradwy say his statement about el shea'a in middle east and he appeared his worry from the spread of shea'a way in egypt ..
and then we got artical from the radical islamic writer called fahmy hewedy haed lined by " akhta'at ya mwlana = our king you got a wronge " and fahmy said "he desagree with elqaradwy becouse the time and the newspaper how puplish the statments .. and it'll make the Priority for the Conflict betwen the she'a and suna .. not betwen the arabs and isreal .. "
oh , i didn't understand what's the " el mad elshe'e =the Prevalence of she'a " untill now .. any body know ?
i think everyone is responsible enough to be sure about his religion and believe !
.. and Suddenly we have reply from young brotherhood member called meneem mahmoud about fahmy hewedy article .. the headline of meneem article .. is " no we're the worngers " !
and meneem said a lot of funny statements i heard for 1st time !
meneem is said alote of ( facts ) i think he's sure about .. an let's see few of them..
1st .. el qaradawy is Represent of the moderate Islam .. which moderate Islam elqaradawy is represent ?
2nd .. meneem is said he don't like Iranian influence in iraq and other places .. by the way i can hear the same statement from bush :-) ...
3rd ..meneem said el qaradwy statement is not mean Racism anti iranians .. so what's elqaradawy statement mean, meneem ?

The First post

i don't know what i have to write in my 1st post here .. but i think i have to introduce myself to you ..
I'm Egyptian gay guy living in Cairo .. around 20 .. i think i'm 100% sr8 acting ... so if i don't tell you about my real ID you'll never know about!
i didn't choice to be a gay .. and have a different feelings about sex and for sure life !
i against Mubarak regim from before 2005 .. i caring about alot things in life like political culture, and etc
to be honest the blogging resolution was so hard because i know a lot of blogs and some bloggers as well from very long time ..
like the star wael abbas and also our 1st intersting gay blog karem azmy
so .... i was thinking about ... i'll write anything i want online .. and have comments from ppl maybe call me by " khawal = bad word in arabic " or " kafer = non-believer "!
and they thinking themselves like gods !
i won't spend say ... hey .. gay life is not choise .. and hello .. i do believe in god !
so .. i choice to blogging by english .. to be away for all this fucken things

i'll talk about every think in this page .. I'll make my mind free to say all i want ..

maybe I'll blog about some hot guy i saw in night .. or maybe i blog about some great sex i had ..
or about the fucken three relationships i got ..or maybe about moubarak and goverment .. or maybe about some nice movie i watch .. actully i don't know ...
but i'll blogging ...:-)