in the deep of your sadness as a gay !

in the deep of your sadness ... you may meet some good one .. let you think positive ..
he's not necessarily being fucken' hot, or even your over type as a gay but you feeling that's he's a def. guy. and you find your bad mood has been changed, that dont means you have un balanced personalty ! .. umm but actually maybe ..
from my view .. i do believe that all gays " especially " are not really you may balanced .. until 40s you may meet one changed all over your life ! .. that's the only thing I'm afraid of !
ooh .. when being gay .. maybe it's nice .. but not that easy especially when you being like me .. living in some conservative state ! .. ah .. how complicated it is !

:-) Not about sex !

Please, try to look deeply into this pic, it's not about sex, it's just about LOVE, i think you can feel how much those both in love!

The equation, do you have idea !

i LOVE someone,
he Even didn't feel me,
i never told him,
we still see each others as just friends,
he asked me about my opinion in if he felt something def. about some guy,
he going to have long term travel really far of my country,


do you think i have to tell him about my feeling in the " maybe " last time we going to see each others !

P.S : i starting to feel that's i gonna be more fine than i'm now after telling him , but i afraid if he ignoring me or thinking bad on me !

God Bless you Neda, Fuck Negad

God Bless you Nada and Fuck you ahmady Negad, fuck your regime, fuck you government, you are totally like Moubarak .. your election is fake totally like Mobaraks election.

I'm on the twitter now !

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and anytime you can see my updates in the sidebar of this fucken' blog !
peace !

Iran

what the hell !
fake election yawelad elweskha ! .. or maybe it's the islamist way in the election or it's the vision of islamist democracy ... a7a !
do you remember what the fucken' Iranian regime did for gays
the ass-hole khameay mention in his speech that's it's the election and all citizens must accept the results ! a7a ..he forgot that the ones who accept fake results are " saketen an el7aq "?
ha ... ?

and the other silly part in the story is the reaction of some egyotian who were almost supporting Ahmady Nejad , just because he anti Isreal and the states !
i asking my self if the old adminstratins in the USA was still in there ..what gonna happpen .. Barak Obama is still trying to good with everybody .. and the only statement he said " the world is watching what happen in Iran " a7a one mlast time :)


any way .. I'm happy by the demos that happening Over there in iran .. and i'm in solidarity with the freedom dreamers there ! and finally fauck Nijad and Moubarak because they are not really def persons !

drunk night

i arrived to my home around 5 am .. trying to open the door but i cant .. mum heard my keys sound and open the door .. she was praying el fajr ..
why u late ? .. she asked me .. and i going street to my room .. closed the door and then my bed .. closed my eyes .. and started dreaming before sleep ..
i dreaming by call ..just a call from the guy i met from few day's the guy i feel his clam when i touched ..
wow .. i cant image that's it's the 1st time i feel a clam of guy from more than 2 years ..
every time i had fun .. i get non-enjoying .. but with him all was deff.
i dreaming by touched him again and kiss his lips
the time i met .. i had no fun with him .. but i was extremely happy .. just because i'm with him ..
i know .. maybe that's NOT love .. and maybe it's .. i miss him so much now.
now i'm in very bad mood ..and don't know what will happen..
beside um not sure about anythin .. like .. if i am into relationship or no .. ? my heart is ready for love ? ... my life is ready for partner ?
everythin is not going well .. rabena yestor