in the deep of your sadness as a gay !

in the deep of your sadness ... you may meet some good one .. let you think positive ..
he's not necessarily being fucken' hot, or even your over type as a gay but you feeling that's he's a def. guy. and you find your bad mood has been changed, that dont means you have un balanced personalty ! .. umm but actually maybe ..
from my view .. i do believe that all gays " especially " are not really you may balanced .. until 40s you may meet one changed all over your life ! .. that's the only thing I'm afraid of !
ooh .. when being gay .. maybe it's nice .. but not that easy especially when you being like me .. living in some conservative state ! .. ah .. how complicated it is !